1st January 2015. I don't know where to start to be honest. Gotta wedge this post in between my China trip blog cuz this is more apt for the occasion. Well, too many events racing through my mind right now, I couldn't sum up 2014 with any specific highlights. It has been an up and down roller coster ride, I enjoyed beautiful splendid moments lifting me up to seven heavens, yet I also fell into the deepest chasm of despair, desperation, frustration and confusion. Given to describe 2014, I'd say it was life-changing and eye-opening. I've been through stuff that taught me invaluable lessons and values, I've seen stuff that made me take a more philosophical and emotional perspective as I make judgements. I've also spent more time than ever with myself alone, reflecting and understanding my needs and my character as a whole. Though I kicked off 2014 last year with a bad start that almost threw me off the cliff's edge, I eventually managed to find my footing along the way and successfully scaled to the mountain's peak.
Let's do a lil' throw back to the start of 2014. I remember watching the fireworks outside MBS Shoppes with Momo and Jeez (view partially blocked by the museum), pending for our O's results that would soon be out in a few days. Received my result and came crashing down from the towering heights of my deepest hopes. Broke my entire ego skeleton, which was so difficult to piece them back together. Couldn't accept the truth, and continued soaring to the high skies with my already contorted wings. Eventually, even the remains of my broken wings were clipped off when I didn't get into any JC of my choice, and had to go to one that was the farthest of them. I was so ashamed of hanging with my ex-classmates, afraid that they will look down on me, afraid that they would start outcasting me. Each time I see a Marist, I'd be embarrassed because I was so insecure about my results, I was speculating rumors about me out of paranoia. I was in chaos and distress. I felt that I failed everyone especially my family. All the while since young, I was a smart kid. After O's, I became a down-there. No offence to anyone with the same score as me, it's just the expectations people set for me and the ones I set for myself was too much to handle.
I ended up in PJC. Initially, I took 2hrs to reach school for Matriculation. I was literally on the verge of dropping out because I couldn't handle the distance. I lamented and complained about how far I have to travel daily. Getting really whiny indeed. Couldn't accept the fact that I will spending 2 years traveling so far just to get schooling. I was at the lowest point in my life. I still had hopes though. My appeal could possibly see me off to a better life. So at that time, I continued enjoying my Matriculation period. All the way till Orientation, that's when I realized that my life had been finalized.... At that point.... I knew.... I fucked up...... I was seriously fucking pessimistic about everything from then on. Lost the cheerful me and became emo af. Sometimes I had fun in school but sooner or later, the dreadful and hopeless feeling still returned to haunt me. I changed as a person, I changed a heck lot. I started to think alot and also think very deeply because I've hours of bus and train journey to and from school. I shut myself out from my old friends, tried so hard to leave everything in past behind and forced out a new yet fake "I'm Okay, Never Better" me. Still, I couldn't get rid of the shackles. Seeing how pitiful and pathetic I was, y'all might wondering, how the hell did I get through all these bullshit. Sounds seriously shitty.... Well, friends. Old and new. Bros and hoes.
I met a beautiful bunch of people in school. The school atmosphere kinda sucked and the school management was mediocre. However, that's not a direct implication that the people there are also of the same calibre. I met really funny and outgoing people from my MG and my OG. Made friends with people just by talking to them randomly. Had prejudice against some people but eventually they turned out to be the people I'm closest with!
I met Edwin in MG1, a retarded Swiss Cottage fag with no sense of hairstyle (he had those post 1 month botak head HAHAHA). He expressed severe symptoms of autism through the funny antics he did. The only dude who didn't give a fuck about shame and joined me in my sing aloud-cum-beatboxing sessions. Although his voice wasn't particularly the sweetest sounding one and he was rather tone deaf most of the time, I like how he goes all out to entertain people and keep the hype raging. I found the first person who had something in common as me! HAHAHA! Would be really cool to hang out with a retard like him in a school full of image-conscious people but we sadly had to part ways due to our choices of different subject combination...
"C'mon... Don't tell me this school doesn't have any Marists......... I NEED TO SEE SOME FAMILIAR FACES OTHERWISE I'LL BE A SOCIALLY AWKWARD TARD!" Second day of Matriculation, thank you lord! I met Zavier, my lower sec classmate and my dive trip mate.(we were distant af last time) We freaking embraced one another in a warm hug at the back of the school hall early in the morning. I was so elated and excited! THE FEELING WAS LIKE, FINALLY FINALLY!! We weren't close at all previously but now, we only have each other to depend on. He came to PJC as it was near his house and I came to PJC because.... LOL.... But who knows, he went to MSHS everyday from Boon Lay to Bartley, sharing the same woe as me in the past. Got to know him well after the few days and I felt that kind of loyalty and bro feels exuding from him. The most surprising part is that, he and Edwin went to the same class and they instantly click together! HAHAHA!
Orientation was boring as hell because I was in a class full of girls. 4 years boy's school taught me well man... I can't talk to girls for god's sake... Then, there was this massive ass 95kg fat douche from ACS(I) with a face so jiao and cocky, I could have broke his face if not for his intimidating size. Turns out, this rugger dude was Christopher, or as I like to call him, Ctay. He was the first to talk to me in the OG and I was so shocked that someone could actually cuss out so badly even amidst chill and easy, non-provoking conversation. This douchebag cursed "fuck" several times in every single sentence. For normal people to say "Okay sure.", it would most probably be like, "Knn fucking bloody fuck set lah fuck" I mean, I don't even know him and the first impression I had from the first convo with him was already messed up. I started to dislike the way he speak but slowly, through the first day, he made me laugh till I almost piss me pants HAHAHA! I don't know why, even though the shit he joked about was seriously freaking mean, (DUA PUI SAI! HAHAHA) I still ended laughing my ass off and rofl-ed till I cried! He was damn funny, the only guy I can click to at that moment. But he thought Bio wasn't what he wanted and so, he abandoned me for another class......
Didn't intend to join any CCA because I wanted to go full out studies like some nerd, but eventually couldn't help but join the newly founded Football CCA. There I met Ctay's MG mate, Zaki. It was pretty cool to talk to him because he had a way with convos. I could talk about my personal stuff and he could relate to it easily. Plus, Ctay used to drop by our CCA and get us together. It was funny how I managed to make friends with Zaki through Ctay's connections HAHAHA. The way he intro people also pretty messed up, but luckily I was okay with it.
Here comes the big part. 28th March 2014. One Friday evening after CCA, Zavier and Edwin joined Zaki and I in the canteen to chill, then Ctay appeared out of nowhere with his jiaobin and we started chit chatting. That was when I realized, hey! THIS COULD BE THE START OF SOMETHING BIG! Edwin left us for dinner cuz he was a Mamaboy (still is). We took a pic together and then headed to Lot 1 to have our dinner together. And that...... That was the assembly of the Friday Bros. The first dinner that brought us from all walks of life, from all reigns of kingdoms and from all streams of the river! Basically, doing away with all the drama, I just merely created a whatsapp group based on the day we first hung out and added all of them inside HAHAHAHA!
These boys brought me bouts of laughing seizures and never fail to entertain me. We all had a common thing which being HYPER and CRAZY and we would anything to get a good laugh. Probably, the nosiest and most vulgar bunch of people in PJC but heck, we are always enjoying a good time!! We started going out, dining, playing LAN, chilling over cider at Trattoria@313 and many many stuff. Did all kinds of stupid shit that people in school would deem as annoying HAHAHA! Really sorry to those who had to put up with our nonsense. There's still one more year of madness to go!! These bros are the main reason why I have the drive to wake up at 5.45am each morning to go to school. I couldn't help but smile when I see them together :) They are, in fact, the first bunch of people I've met who are so outgoing, so onzzz and set about everything, so enthusiastic over small lil' stuff and so crazy for fun! Kudos to y'all, thank God for bringing us together!! We've all decided to work hard together for our exams and subsequently we did! All of us did well and promoted together as a gang :) I'm so damn proud! 2014 was a blast with yall!
Not to mention my Nigga Crew, a bunch of swag ass dawgs from my class enduring endless classroom shit with me that are thrown in our faces. These peepo are the ones I hanged out most with in school, been through the thick and thin of 2014 together and made it fun while suffering HAHAHA! Though we might not be seeing each other as often as we did anymore, we could still hang out and rant to our hearts' content :)
My football dudes. Really a fun bunch of people! Though we never fail to get screwed by our coach for every training, but that didn't stop us from having a good time :) Exhausted and burned out as we may be, we always pull through the arduous sessions cracking sick jokes and shit HAHAHA! Paiseh Junhao pigumao for having prejudice against you last time HAHAHA! Didn't tell you that but, anyway, you looked like a very gangster paikia young punk step dog when I first came to PJC. MG2 gangster siol! Really scared to mess with you, though I wanted to settle with you outside school in my imagination and see what kind of gang you would bring HAHAHA! Kudos to Remus and Aloy for going home with me after every training, walking through Teck Whye in the dark, talking about all kinds of shit on the bus ride back home. Couldn't ask for better night bus buddies!
Speaking of bus buddies, thanks Chester! Your company on that dreadfully long bus ride to school from Dhoby Ghaut is much appreciated :) Chatting all the way to school and sniffing the much despised Teck Whye air with me, shiok ah! HAHAHA! It wasn't easy surviving the distance, especially when you live in Hougang and I like Serangoon, but at least we've got each other to share the pain. One more year of insane traveling only.... ONE MORE FKING YEAR. AND BOOOM. DONE. WE ZAO GO HOLLAND V DRINK. ONZ BO?!?!?! HAHAHA
To Mingkai my curly hair afro dog, gratz for playing frisbee everyday. Hahaha jkjk. Thanks for sticking by me everyday in school. I know it's not easy tolerating my hyped up shit, but please continue to do so till the end of 2015. Thanks bruh. And stop playing your damn ass handphone. I'll smash it if your addiction continues this year. Kthxbye
Special mentions to old bros who also helped me get through the year! Gaylord my gym bro! Although you have embarked on a new journey to the Powerlifting World, I still wish you all the best to your future lifting endeavors! To my Shit Squad, yeah, we don't hang out that often, but when we do, we set fire to the world! Hahaha jkjk actually we quite chill.... Last but not least.... The faggots who celebrated New Year Countdown with me for 2 consecutive years 2014 and 2015, the King Elvis Minions, Momo and Jeez, with guest of honor for 2015 countdown Han Wei, y'all really rock ballz. Insulting each other was the shit man :) Had fun raving last night at Marina with y'all :) Thanks for celebrating my birthday with me too! I appreciate it deep down :')
Well, it's the start of new year with all possibilities of how screwed up or how sensational my life can be. Can't wait to unlock those doors and explore new things :) Cheers to the many friendships I hold dear to me and cheers to the future of them! 2015's gonna be an all out full throttle grinding year, shit's gonna be thrown at me still, except more, but I ain't letting up. With these people by me, I'll spike through the clouds and hopefully not fuck shit up with the decisions I made. Finally, my New Year resolution is to be more positive and cheerful, hopefully, continue to influence people around me with the right vibes ;) Hope y'all have a great one. Beastvis/Elbeast signing off! Peace Out~
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