Promos Result Feels

7 Oct 2014. Today was quite a dull day to begin with... Dreaded going school today because of the release of Promos results :( I wasn't embracing any high hopes for my grades because a part of me knew that I fucked it up. I was so demoralized after the Biology paper because I thought my answer wasn't full enough and to-the-point. This is especially so when my Bio MCQ was in mess after my teacher went through answers with the class.

Teacher: "Class these are the common questions that some of you got wrong" *Lists like ten questions on the whiteboard*

After going through the common mistakes, I realized that I got 90% of the questions listed wrong. Man, I was stoning for the entire lesson in class because it's somewhat an indication that I messed it up.




Chemistry was rather disastrous for me because of the unnecessary commotion kicked up by the VP during Paper 1 that got me so distracted. Mindblocked for the first 10mins because I was too scared of getting caught for not wearing my collar pin:( In the end I barely escaped it so HAHAHA! Messed up my MCQ so badly in the end. Math was alright but shit always happens to me particularly for Math. I was stuck at the differentiation question for awhile, thinking of ways to solve when suddenly.... WOAH, IT'S THAT EASY!!! As I was writing my first statement.... "Everyone please put your pens down." FUUUUCCCCCKKKK Wasted 7 marks. Went to check answers with my friends and felt so down when I realized my answer didn't tally with theirs.... Sometimes I wonder why I can do shit only when I'm left with almost no time... Most likely the reason why I'm productive when faced with last minute situations HAHAHAHA!




After Promos, I was regretting on how much better I could have done if I had planned my study sessions right at least 3 weeks before the exams. I got the drive only when I realized how many chapters that I've forgot and how demanding the past year papers are.... DURING THE SEPTEMBER HOLIDAY... 1 week to Promos and I just started preparing for it. My other friends pushed to full gear at least a month before and there I was, frantically trying to save my sorry ass. Due to time constraint, I didn't get to practice any of my MCQs (basically the reason why I fare badly for that) and just skimmed through some chapters I deem unimportant. I was praying for a miracle to happen for me to smoke my way through Promos like the haze in SG. I pretty much given up all hope on scoring even a D for anything. A subpass would suffice. My expectations were low af....





Thankfully, my result is pretty much a contrast to my expectations. I did well for Bio and Math, Chem was average, but got Es for my GP and Econs. Fuck GP... My compo digressed from the question so much, the examiner had to specifically comment at every paragraph stating how "no link" my content was. Talked about Singapore's Education when question was about "Learning is Earning". Haish.... Busted my GP from a B to an E.





But overall I'm really contented with my results :) Thank God for getting me through all these shit!! I know some of y'all probably be comparing yourselves to others who did better, I have to concede that I did conduct self-evaluation based on others too. But it doesn't affect me so long as I feel it's pretty alright in the supposed situation when you don't know anything about anyone's results. Because at the end of the day there's always someone ahead of you, excelling and shit. Just gotta learn to pick yourself up from where you left off and do something if you want to see a change, for the better that is. Your biggest enemy is yourself. I do regret that I studied so last minute (yet fortunately the results were miraculous), but regret and taking action to remedy it as compared to regret and letting things perpetuate are two different things. The former will better yourself in various aspects and the latter will crumble everything you've collectively done so far. Hahaha actually the "you" in this context basically refers to me.... But it's okay, I like to keep things personal for you readers *WINK*






Anyway it's Momo's birthday tomorrow!! Want to celebrate for him but.... School.... Urgh... PW!! URGH!!! Gayzxc shitzxc.... Momo if you're reading this, paiseh I can't celebrate with you tomorrow (I bet you can't too). But don't worry, I'm getting you a present. Quite cool, I play with it for like a year already. Not bad lah, considering it's a secondhand item. Hope you enjoy it! HAHAHAHA jkjk love you bitch!!





~Have a good one. Peace Out~

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