Positivity

Yo what up peepo! Just last week I made a pact with myself, to find back the old happy-go-lucky and cheerful Elvis. It didn't take much for me to search for my old self because I only go by one rule this entire week, "EVERYDAY IS A GOOD DAY!" I realized how dull and pessimistic I was across the entire span of this year. Yeah, point the fingers at JC for sucking the life and happiness outta me. Ultimately, it is still up to me to decide whether I want to feel this way. I'm sure many of y'all reading this probably be like, "Screw JC, I was a happy person last time. But now I'm not." Maaaaannn, c'mon. Let's just blame it on how weak your mind is (hahaha no offence lemme elaborate).

Stress is inevitable. Everybody knows that. But it is YOU who choose the kind of thoughts you want to harbour, the feelings you want to have when faced with a certain situation and the actions you want to take to respond. All in all, you were the one who corner your poor happy self to the cliff and threaten it to take a leap of uncertainty. That's my take on why we gradually become "sad" people.

What prompted me to seek positivity and optimism out of the blue? Well actually, every single day when I go to school, I see all the dreadful faces. I overhear conversations taking off with "SIAN..." "I Hate PW...." "I Hate School" "I Hate (this)" "I Hate (that)" and especially ---> *Sigh*

Woah, what a way to start a day! People tuned their mood of the day such that it is so dull! I was kinda "doing research" on it and found out that most of my friends who started the day complaining and lamenting about their lives, ended up being extremely frustrated and irritable amidst their work. Man, there's just TOO MUCH of this negative energy that it's dropping its pores on me as well.

After seeing all these pessimist rubbing their lackluster attitude on people around them, I'm like, "No way am I gonna join y'all sulking your days away." I begun with a new chant, "EVERYDAY IS A GOOD DAY!" and even tried encouraging my sian classmates with this chant. Hahahaha pretty much failed initially as everyone had enough of PW... But anyway, I tried starting my day off a bit differently. In the morning when I board the bus, I forced myself to say "GOOD MORNING!" to the also tired and pissy bus driver. Didn't turn out too bad though :) The bus driver smiled at me and waved me a good morning! Stage 1 of positivity infection muahahahaha :)

In school, I try to put smiles on my friends' faces and crack some jokes to get them laughing. Slowly but surely, they responded positively as well when they laughed and joined in the lively convo. It's a two-way thing and someone gotta initiate it first. Once that is done, we feed off each other's happiness to create our own. If I make you laugh, you say something along the line to make me laugh, you siao, I also siao, we all siao together, everybody happy! Pardon my Singaporean parlance, but you get the idea right? If negativity can be proliferated so easily when you spread it to people around you, wouldn't it be better to spread positivity and make your life and others' lives happier? Why drag happy individuals down with you to swim in your pool of pessimism and despair?

For me, I found it easier to get back on the happy-go-lucky track when I mix around with people of that caliber. Reason being, everyone around you is happy, there's no point of you sulking amongst a group of people with smiles on their faces. Now, I find myself making friends laugh like crazy with my trademark characteristic, humour :) Finally I can put it to good use. Been staying stagnant for awhile.... WE GONNA KEEP IT ROLLING NIGGAS!!!

The takeaway message is simple, "Everyday may not be good, but there is always something good in everyday." That's the philosophy I'm holding dear to. Try stepping out the house with a smile and chanting "EVERYDAY IS A GOOD DAY!". Say "GOOD MORNING!" as whacky and retarded as possible to crack your friends up and get them on the same channel as you. Any shit that comes along the way, just take it easy, think what's positive about this shit, and just move on. Basically, JUST TURN THE DAMN SHIT INTO FERTILIZER AND THERE, IT'S USEFUL. Positive thinking ;)

And please, if you are reading this and you feel like you fall under the category of "Negative Peeps", do something to change it for the better. No point spending your life hating every single part of it. You live your life and not just exist. So live it to the fullest and enjoy every minute of it :) ~Don't worry, be happy~

~Have a REALLY good one. Peace Out~

My Bro's 21st Birthday

11 October 2014. Awesome day! Suited up black and white for my brother's birthday, which unfortunately.... TOOK PLACE AT HOME. Initially when he told me to suit up black and white, I thought we gonna celebrate his 21st birthday in some luxurious ass hotel. Then he said, "At home". My hopes and dreams straight up shattered into pieces hahaha. But eventually, shit turned out pretty alright I would say. Well, there's nothing much to highlight, really, except a few things that I'm gonna talk about later on. The party was basically just, lots of family and friends, more friends, vodka, Mojito, buffet dinner, EVEN MORE FRIENDS. Man, I didn't know my bro's social circle was that huge...

During the party, I met my cousin Kenneth who's 27 years old and just got back from the US. Kenneth was the most fun-filled, cool and street-smart person I've ever seen in my life. I look up to him for advice sometimes but I don't really get the chance to contact him very often because he's always traveling the world, doing shit he like. We talked about school and reminisced old times together.

While we were at the topic of school, he said things to me that I'll never forget... He mentioned that he did pretty well for O's and got into ACJC. Too bad he was playful during J1 and got himself retained, but eventually he graduated after A's with decent results, just enough to get him into the Uni course of his choice. He then told me to be SMART in JC, "Don't kill yourself at such a young age, slogging your life out to study and score all As, because honestly, no company will ask about your A level results during a job interview. Your degree/diploma does the talking." This was quickly validated by my uncles who then joined in the conversation. In fact, he said, those who scored all straight As did that for the honour and glory at the moment in time to establish an identity that "I AM SMART" or the person thought he/she could qualify for any Uni course if they scored straight As. I mean, everyone wants to score straight As, but, grinding your subjects so hard and sacrificing so many aspects of your life, socially, emotionally, mentally and physically, is totally not worth especially when your youth is super precious and dear.

Kenneth is actually a very intelligent and bright dude. He's just not cut out to study and fit into the system. We both share the same idea of rebellion and refusal to conform to whatever societal standards and norms. He did a brief comparison between my bro and I, and said we are total contrast of one another. My bro, is the kind of person who can study and will study. 9A1s for O's and 6A 1C for A's, became a commando officer and then proceeded to studying at NUS Business Admin. He's like the ideal child for every Singaporean parent, and he sure did my parents darn proud. Then there's me, the dude who hates to study but forced to do so, messed up my O's pretty badly. Got into a JC that isn't up to the Rafflesian standard, likes to do things against the flow to see what kind of outcomes there could possibly be. Definitely not the ideal child every parent wants, but probably the child that walks a the left way instead of the right way.

After the stark contrast and compare, he told me not to feel useless even though I may not excel in academic areas. "Try something else. Do something you want to do and learn from the experience. Learn from your dad. He was a pai kia last time but grew up to be someone successful after venturing around and learning stuff from other people to create something of his own." He then gave me ideas about experiencing the outside world like doing some seriously underrepresented jobs. He once went to Malaysia on his own and made a deal with a hotel manager - to provide him accommodation for a night at the hotel if he cleans up one entire level of hotel rooms in 4 hours. The manager was impressed and gave him an unofficial temporary job at the hotel to pay for the accommodation provided. He then traveled to the US and Canada to live with his friends whilst trying out different jobs and learning business as he work. After all these ventures, he returned back to SG and began embarking on his business ideas and plans for realzies.

He gave me so much inspiration on what to do with my life! I want to do stuff like that! Something like a nomad... I don't want to do the same thing as everyone else! IT'S SO MUNDANE, DULL, BORING AND MAINSTREAM. I want to learn shit that notes, textbooks and TYS can't teach. Learning from the University of Society hahaha as what my dad always reply when asked about what Uni has he been to (Highest Qualification: O level). I'm planning on doing this venture right after army and before entering Uni, which is if I can even get into one hahaha! I'll take 6 months off, leave my home and live everywhere in the world and try to survive independently. Sounds rather impossible and insane for me to actually do it, but believe it or not, that's a definite must-do on my life's checklist.

Alright it's getting pretty damn late. Need to sleep and stay awake in school tomorrow for fucking PW. Giving me lots of shit lately, but it's okay, do it well, do it once. By the way, Kenneth gave me his $6k Gibson Les Paul electric guitar HAHAHA!! OMG SO BEAUTIFUL!! He said he got bored of playing guitar and didn't used it at all, just like the PS3 that he gave us. SWEEETT~~ Picking up guitar now~~~ Anyway, I just hope my bro and I can click together closely like how we used to in the past. I don't want a segregated as fuck brotherhood relationship to the extent that we don't even utter a single word when we see each other. Let's go back to when we do super thrilling, fun and exciting stuff together and when our relationship was literally BRO!

~Have a good one. Peace Out~

Party Bouncers

Darrick is retarded I swear

Retarded Sis... Selfie when I ask her to help me take a pic -.-

Darrick is autistic

Step class.

AH MA!

Family portrait!

Gibson Les Paul

What Does It Take To Be Genuine?

Yo what up, gee? I've been pestered by this question quite recently as I interact and communicate with the people in school. Being genuine.... Is it that hard? Now let me define what I mean by genuine. In my perspective, a genuine person is someone who comes off as very natural person. No facade overlaying a hue of deceit and unexpressed double-standard emotions. No "smile-in-the-face-then-rip-the-brakes-off-the-car" intentions. No backstabs, betrayal and unfaithfulness. Just a plain simple yet straightforward and honest person. Most importantly someone who doesn't go against his/her own principles to take shit out on others.




Pardon my explicit illustration of what genuine person is like, because it shouldn't be this way if it was to be genuine. However, in recent times, I have been detecting such inconsistency in "genuineness" amongst people, it's starting to turn me off. Some people turn out to get along well initially, and I accept it with an open heart. But things quickly turn sour the moment a lil' "trouble' surfaces such that people actually alter their attitude towards me. It's a pretty distinct indication that the ties formed were just scaffolds to help stabilize the building, in a way that it will be removed once the building is constructed. I don't really appreciate receiving the treatment untruthful people give, you never know when you are gonna get the cold treatment. I don't like inconsistent and flimsy relationship/friendship. Well, let's simply put it this way... I don't get along with people who are fake. To the point and succinct. Frankly speaking, I can be acquainted with people like that, but I have no further intentions on expanding the boundaries of the relationship because I can only see how far we can go, which obviously is not very far.




My deepest apologies in advance should you feel that I'm launching indirect attacks, but in all honesty, that is not of my prime motive. I'm speaking, rather, in a general emotional point of view about things that had happened or are bound to happen in the future.





My question is, why is it so difficult to be true to what you feel? Why do you act based on feigned pretense and convey a message across to the receiving end whilst contrasting what you actually feel inside? Isn't there a general principle we should all abide to? Why can't we all just put differences aside, completely annihilate the prejudices and judgements between people you know, be straightforward yet constructively blunt and just be genuine? Seems like a really impossible mission to achieve for some who are always riddled with hatred, anger, frustration, unhappiness and intolerance... Here's the thing, people are surrounded with so much negative energy that it perpetuates and proliferates to people around them.





Having said so much, I want to be as genuine a person as I can be. If I ever encounter disagreement with someone, I'll voice out my thoughts in a very tactful manner and allow the person to express his/her discontentment. Do it in the way of the Marists. We settle shit on the spot, upfront, to the face, no game, no strategy, just with the aim of putting issues to an end. Ahhhhh..... Life was so much easier back in the days...





Anyway, my takeaway message is that, if you ever feel like you are being double-standard, expressing certain emotions in front of someone and then switching it up to another feeling for the same person behind his/her back, just know that you are not Harvey Dent in the Batman series - YOU ARE NOT TWO-FACE!!!! If you are, then you have half of you looking really nice and good and the other half of you displaying the ugliest side that you can be. Well, all I can say is that it's good to only have one face, and hopefully it isn't the totally charred and screwed up one hahaha!






Anyway, I got a step new haircut. Tried a hair tattoo and received several complaints and criticism calling me a YP (Young Punk) and a step fuck. People just can't help but to follow their fingers along the line on my hair hahahaha! Couldn't say no to trendy new things right? Hahaha! Sidecomb all day errr day! Good thing I didn't get caught by the school management today.... Deceiving them with the other side of my head to show that I actually got a normal haircut. I guess I'm..... TWO FACED!! AHHHHHHHHH!!! Hahaha





~Have a good one. Peace Out~

Very cool. Very Swag. I like it. (ft. Sexy wannabebutfail face)

Promos Result Feels

7 Oct 2014. Today was quite a dull day to begin with... Dreaded going school today because of the release of Promos results :( I wasn't embracing any high hopes for my grades because a part of me knew that I fucked it up. I was so demoralized after the Biology paper because I thought my answer wasn't full enough and to-the-point. This is especially so when my Bio MCQ was in mess after my teacher went through answers with the class.

Teacher: "Class these are the common questions that some of you got wrong" *Lists like ten questions on the whiteboard*

After going through the common mistakes, I realized that I got 90% of the questions listed wrong. Man, I was stoning for the entire lesson in class because it's somewhat an indication that I messed it up.




Chemistry was rather disastrous for me because of the unnecessary commotion kicked up by the VP during Paper 1 that got me so distracted. Mindblocked for the first 10mins because I was too scared of getting caught for not wearing my collar pin:( In the end I barely escaped it so HAHAHA! Messed up my MCQ so badly in the end. Math was alright but shit always happens to me particularly for Math. I was stuck at the differentiation question for awhile, thinking of ways to solve when suddenly.... WOAH, IT'S THAT EASY!!! As I was writing my first statement.... "Everyone please put your pens down." FUUUUCCCCCKKKK Wasted 7 marks. Went to check answers with my friends and felt so down when I realized my answer didn't tally with theirs.... Sometimes I wonder why I can do shit only when I'm left with almost no time... Most likely the reason why I'm productive when faced with last minute situations HAHAHAHA!




After Promos, I was regretting on how much better I could have done if I had planned my study sessions right at least 3 weeks before the exams. I got the drive only when I realized how many chapters that I've forgot and how demanding the past year papers are.... DURING THE SEPTEMBER HOLIDAY... 1 week to Promos and I just started preparing for it. My other friends pushed to full gear at least a month before and there I was, frantically trying to save my sorry ass. Due to time constraint, I didn't get to practice any of my MCQs (basically the reason why I fare badly for that) and just skimmed through some chapters I deem unimportant. I was praying for a miracle to happen for me to smoke my way through Promos like the haze in SG. I pretty much given up all hope on scoring even a D for anything. A subpass would suffice. My expectations were low af....





Thankfully, my result is pretty much a contrast to my expectations. I did well for Bio and Math, Chem was average, but got Es for my GP and Econs. Fuck GP... My compo digressed from the question so much, the examiner had to specifically comment at every paragraph stating how "no link" my content was. Talked about Singapore's Education when question was about "Learning is Earning". Haish.... Busted my GP from a B to an E.





But overall I'm really contented with my results :) Thank God for getting me through all these shit!! I know some of y'all probably be comparing yourselves to others who did better, I have to concede that I did conduct self-evaluation based on others too. But it doesn't affect me so long as I feel it's pretty alright in the supposed situation when you don't know anything about anyone's results. Because at the end of the day there's always someone ahead of you, excelling and shit. Just gotta learn to pick yourself up from where you left off and do something if you want to see a change, for the better that is. Your biggest enemy is yourself. I do regret that I studied so last minute (yet fortunately the results were miraculous), but regret and taking action to remedy it as compared to regret and letting things perpetuate are two different things. The former will better yourself in various aspects and the latter will crumble everything you've collectively done so far. Hahaha actually the "you" in this context basically refers to me.... But it's okay, I like to keep things personal for you readers *WINK*






Anyway it's Momo's birthday tomorrow!! Want to celebrate for him but.... School.... Urgh... PW!! URGH!!! Gayzxc shitzxc.... Momo if you're reading this, paiseh I can't celebrate with you tomorrow (I bet you can't too). But don't worry, I'm getting you a present. Quite cool, I play with it for like a year already. Not bad lah, considering it's a secondhand item. Hope you enjoy it! HAHAHAHA jkjk love you bitch!!





~Have a good one. Peace Out~

Asian eyes game stronk -.-