Conversations.

Talking is what keeps time passing. Conversations foster relations. Elvis is beast. Haha trying too hard to make shit rhyme. Talking is ingrained in me, it's like a prophecy that I must fulfill. It keeps me social, interactive and alive. Now here's the problem. I've been noticing conversational issues that I've encountered over the recent period of time. Three issues: 1. Not paid due attention and respect, 2. Awkward as hell, 3. Too short-lived




After having experienced JC and interacting with some people, I've found a problem in conversations with some people; the person doesn't pay attention when I'm talking about stuff and/or change the subject of the convo so swiftly I can't even keep up. It is either that or my physical body constituents vaporize and disintegrate the moment I start talking about things related to me and my life. In other words, I turn into a fucking ghost when I speak -.- I don't understand why their matters are so much of a concern but when I share mine, it's an instant turn off. And that is the reason why I bottle many things up or I share it only with very very few close friends. Since I don't matter, they don't have to matter when I have things to confide. Conversation killer characteristic strong in this one. Let's call these bizarre creatures of the social world........ The Me




I can talk about basically anything, you name it! Sex, friends, gossips etc. The list goes on and on. As opposed to The Me, I do appreciate others sharing their lived experience and stuff going on in their life. It's always interesting to know more about stuff that happens outside the scope of my life. But sometimes, some people have absolutely zero content when it comes to having a quick chat as we meet coincidentally and happen to walk the same way. C'mon if you are uncomfortable with talking about sex, heck yeah I'm into gossiping about teachers or impersonating them! What? No? Okay... I'm cool with throw backs to childhood days and relinquishing old school time! Err..... I'm alright with anime I guess but I'm not too into that Fairytale shit, Naruto is fine. I'm a socially 'explosive' mudafucka!!! TALK TO ME!!! GIVE ME YOUR SOUL!!! Hahaha just kidding~ I mean, I'm okay with sharing my side of the story but, you gotta give me a headstart man! Ain't nothing to be awkward about! We ain't walking the same stretch of road that's taking eternity just by playing it off and using our phones! These are Awkwardasaurus.





Last but not least, the short-lived convo. Major turn off. It's like a beautiful start to a flowery world ahead when there's actually something entertaining and common to talk about! It's so awesome!! We can like float away already. Then suddenly there's an abrupt end to the convo. Ahhh... Well, at least it was an awesome first half. Let's get back to lamenting about our own lives again...




Having said so much, I could have been one of those above. I'm not sure because, sometimes it doesn't appear too apparent for me to notice. I may be hypocritical at times but, heck, this blog's about me so.... MUAHAHAHA! Haish, just really miss those days when I had endless conversations with my friends. It was especially so in MSHS. Dem' brothers be feeling my words and we share common interests. So many things to talk about! We couldn't even bear to leave each other and enter a state of solitude after all the crazy shit we laughed at and chatted about. Good ole' days.... It's hard to find a good listener and talker nowadays. I'm always trying to find people to confide my shit to but, I just feel some things aren't meant to be said to them. At least restrict some seriously deep stuff behind the floodgates of my mouth....




Alright that's it for the night! Signing out~