I remembered having it recently... Where could I have placed it? Could it be some supernaturally paranormal being materializing right next to me and stole it away? Then I realized, I did not lose it or have it stolen by some demon. My parents claimed my freedom in their wrath...
I'm a caged animal now. Being mentally-conditioned to continuous study sessions, I'm losing my sense of awareness.
My computer and all of my entertainment got kidnapped, and now my phone seems to be at grave risk. To think that I'm already Secondary 4, I should be doing things I desire to. Instead, I was still treated like a kid. No changes seem to alter their mentality.
Maybe they were right. Maybe if abstinence is taken into considerations, then things will turn out better in a way or another. My O'Levels is in exactly 11 more months. It's one of the most critical period for me now to start on the hard mug. However, this year will be a short yet tedious one. My freedom of will is restricted, stress will start piling up on me and everything will be about results at the end of the day.
Expectations, expectations, expectations. In this materialistic reality, your grades will decide your future, and you decide your grades. All these grades thing is driving me nuts...
Spending Christmas alone at home, and now, a New Year's day lying on my bed, rotting. I want to get this year over and done with, so I can redeem my freedom.
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