Gloomy day... Bleh... Sucks to be a 'noob' at studies... Totally got shamed and burned in front of the class today. And who committed the harassment? Surprisingly, it was a teacher.
"Just like Elvis who shouldn't be in 4A!" Using me as an entertainment or a joke subject for your enjoyment? Seriously? That's bloody low life. Indirectly criticizing me with your bloody sarcastic remarks? Please, I have no space in my 'fucks cabinet' to store those shit. It may intentionally be a 'motivational remark' but pardon me, I do not find it in any ways inspiring. Instead, I find it a freaking direct insult to my ability as a student of this class. You think that I laughed it off as a joke???? HUH?? YOU THINK SO?!?!?!? Behind those fucking joys and laughters are painfully sorrow feelings. And those sarcastic remarks used to insult people's capability are dubbed as "suan-ning".
CONTINUE SUAN-NING ME AS YOU WISH!! As a teacher, you should be helping and aiding students in their studies, correcting their flaws and guiding them in the right path. And look what you are displaying! Still have the guts to warn us not to make fun of this China scholar who was departed back home due to certain reasons. Ended up openly and undauntedly making a mockery out of me in front of the class!?! Bloody hell... Your degree of hypocrisy is beyond the peak. I sincerely salute your double-sided face.
Have you not spare any considerations for people's feelings? In addition, there's not a single pinch of remorse in your actions. Obviously, you are just judging by what you view in your perspective. Honestly, try juggling your CCA with studies while standing precariously on the flimsy edge of each areas, especially when you are responsible for the entire NCC unit.
I have been planning and organizing events since last year when I took over the unit. Back then at the first half of the year, it was manageable. But now, NCC totally consumed my time schedule. Going for competitions after competitions, trainings after trainings, plannings after plannings, it's abnormal for someone to feel relaxed. I have to lead the entire unit and depart them in their future endeavors. Settling issues here and there amongst the unit and also organization of events and camps. I really feel like crumbling under the responsibilities and pressure. Plus, having to direct my focus back to studies is just pure fatigue. Choreographing the routine for my Freestyle Drill team, settling internal NCC affairs, planning for promotion parade, Part A affirmation parade, Passing-out-parade etc.... There's more to come and I know it for sure.
If you really think that I'm a guy who plays games all day and neglect my studies then you are damn wrong. I haven't even touched my Playstation since last year. I don't even like playing computer games. Don't always turn someone into a jester in your eyes, then fire your criticism at people. Like what you've said, when you are pointing at someone else, there are more fingers pointing back at you. "I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet~" -Titanium by David Guetta ft. Sia.
Just waiting for the day when NCC steps down, so I can fully focus on my studies. Then again, I will miss my NCC brothers and juniors badly... Haiz... Peace Out.... :'(
